There I was: a fly on the wall. Just like I’d always wanted to be. Every few minutes I’d get up and buzz around the deserted hallway. These damn nanotech wings tend to freeze up if you don’t keep them moving. But with the air as hot and heavy as it was, I preferred crawling along the walls whenever I had the chance – even if they were the color of foaming piss.
It wasn’t hard to find the right place. The words were acid-etched right onto the frosted-glass door:
Philip Kaye III
Although it was after midnight, I spotted someone’s shadow moving around inside the office to the distorted beat spitting from a cheap radio. I swear it was the Fine Young Cannibals singing “She Drives Me Crazy” – but maybe I just imagined it. The shadow stopped moving in the middle of the office, obscuring the words on the left side of the door. The new sign read: III Eye Investigations.
The shadow sat down behind a desk. I could hear the noisy clacking of a typewriter. It sounded just like an old Underwood Model Five. Lost in the music created by the flying typewriter keys, I didn’t even hear the click-clacking of her high heels until she was at the door. She rapped several times on the glass with her knuckles. The typing stopped.
As we waited together for the door to open, I looked her over. She was a one-two punch, the kind of dark-haired girl that hits you right in the guts and makes you go weak in the knees. She had more breathtaking curves and more death-defying drops than a rollercoaster ride.
Kaye opened the door and I could just about hear his heart stop. I followed the dark-haired girl’s swaying hips into the office. Her black and white dress seemed to have been airbrushed on. She carried a matching purse that looked like an oversized wallet in her ringless left hand.
“How may I help you, Miss – ?”
She held out her slim hand and peered out at Kaye through the black and white veil that cascaded down from her pillbox hat. He shook her hand, careful not to scratch himself on her long, sharp fingernails. They were manicured to the color and shape of blood drops.
He offered her a seat. She refused.
“This will only take a minute. I’m looking for a man who can tell what’s real from what’s not. One who won’t be deceived by simple appearances. Does that sound like you?”
Kaye reached into the pocket of his crumpled jacket and handed her a small card. I buzzed in closer to get a better look. He swatted at me. I dove. He missed.
I got a good look at his business card. At the very top, I could see a logo incorporating the Ajna Eye. And there, underneath his name, address, and telephone number, I could make out the two questions that were his principle areas of investigation: “What is real? What is human?”
After she’d read his card, Kaye motioned for her to flip it over. The handwritten words scrawled on the backside read: “What is real is human. What is human is real.”
The dark-haired girl shuddered.
Something was about to happen. I buzzed in even closer. He swatted at me again. I dove – but this time he connected. I kamikazied right into the worn hardwood floor. It took my nanotech systems a couple of minutes to repair the rather extensive damage.
By the time I was able to fly again, I looked up to see Kaye embracing the now hatless girl. He kissed her hard on the lips, his tongue groping the dark inside of her mouth. The girl stiffened at first, but then I watched her melt. Her left foot slid across the floor before rising into the air, loosening the single seam of her silk stocking. I must have missed something while I was out of action.
“I want you,” Kaye said, breaking their embrace. “I want you, but you’re not real. You’re nothing but an illusion – a product of my own obsessive imagination.”
“But couldn’t you just pretend? Who would know?”
“I would know.”
With unfathomable sadness, Kaye opened his third eye and I watched the dark-haired girl fade away into nothingness. One moment, she was there. The next, she was gone.
A single tear welled up in Kaye’s extra eye. When he finally closed it, the tear slid down his forehead, rolled down the center of his nose, and then disappeared somewhere in the thickness of his salt-and-pepper beard.
Kaye walked over to his file cabinet and pulled out a dirty glass and a half-empty bottle of Laphroaig from the top drawer. He sat down in his old leather-covered chair with a loud squeak and poured himself a triple shot. He drank it down in a single swig as if it were medicine that could dull his senses and help him to forget.
He stared down at the keys of his typewriter and then over at the huge manuscript piled beside it. A slow-moving metal fan rustled the pages, stirring the hundreds of thousands of words that covered the hundreds of pieces of paper. It took Kaye several minutes to notice the pillbox hat abandoned on a corner of his desk. He picked it up, held it up to his nose, and breathed in as if he could recall her just by the simple power of her scent.
Kaye tossed the hat into a metal waste basket. It might have landed with a hollow thunk if the trash can hadn’t already been full with several similar hats. As he sat there, I could almost hear him thinking: maybe, just maybe, the next dark-haired girl would be the right one, the real one. He sighed, wiped his mouth with the back of his hand, and continued typing.
Text: Published long ago in the NYRSF (U.S.) and then later reprinted in Vedelik (Estonia).
Image: Glass triskelion pendant from Karja Church on Saaremaa (artist unknown).